Honest confession here-I have nothing to show and not much to say on Day 30 of my 31 Days of Letting Go. I missed yesterday too. I spent too much time on the computer today reading things other blogging women were writing. I read about a wonderful conference on writing many had attended and about people who spoke and what they said and wished that I could have been there too. I read thoughtful, honest, insightful posts that were commented on with compliments and affirming responses. I would like to be thoughtful, honest, and insightful in this post but I am writing while I watch the Spurs play the Grizzlies and that is pretty much the way it is most days. Too much multi-tasking. There was a time towards evening today as we were driving to church for Bible study when discouraging thoughts took front and center bringing tears to my eyes. I could have convinced myself of failure.
Yes, I spent too much time on the computer today. But I also got up early and worked out at the Y. I drank coffee on the balcony and enjoyed that special time with my husband. I loved on my neighbor's baby, and spent time talking to two different friends who are going through hard times. I bundled up trash and washed dishes in the church kitchen after the Bible study, and came home to sit and talk with the young assistant youth pastor who is sharing our home this year, and now we are watching the Spurs. I started out this post with the title, 'Giving myself grace on Day 30' but I just changed it to a title that more truly reflects the truth of the matter. "God, did I fail today?" was the question. From Luke 10 " the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. (you have) chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from you.” I pray that by His grace, I may make good choices of how I spend my time. I thank Him for his grace today.